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  • Computer dreams &, well, not really nightmares…

    After the previous posts about my technology falling behind, I started thinking creatively, mostly because I cannot even think of affording the obvious solution, buying replacements, for a while yet.

    Quick recap – Windows computer needs help, as it’s performance is hurting a little. Mac computer is desperately low on space and is now obsolete.

    For the Windows computer, three things made me think of getting a new computer: I really need more storage, more RAM, and an upgraded video card. Of those three things, the RAM is the only item that can only be fixed with buying hardware – more RAM, and I cannot find $750 (possibly plus ~20%/minus ~5% depending on moon phase or the position of Uranus in various constellations.

    More storage has already been applied with two 2TB external SSDs, but that could be resolved by adding another external SSD, as I have two more USB 3.0 ports available, or even adding one that is more than 2TB, transferring everything from one or both other drives over to the newest drive, and then decommissioning the old drive(s).

    Still kinda spendy, but not $700+ spendy, unless I choose a 8TB external SSD drive. Going from 2TB to 8TB is a huge jump, tho’, so that craziness isn’t required or seriously considered. But 4TB is looking fairly good.

    The video option has been a little more interesting. Because I have multiple USB 3.0 ports and two USB 4.0 ports, I could get an external GPU/Video card housing.

    This is not necessarily a cheap option. But it could be an amazing option.

    Most external housings are between $100 and $200 and do not include the GPU/video card or the power supply. The power supplies supported are typical ATX, and should be sized for the desired video card, so generally run between $60 and $100. This isn’t where it gets expensive, not yet.

    The video cards are where it gets expensive, because of the AI Data Center madness. MSRPs are not even suggestions anymore, they are wishes made into the darkness. A $500 MSRP card is currently running between $550 and $750, again, dependent on the moon phase and astrological conditions.

    BUT – the external housing would free up the RAM used by the internal GPU, so the video card could be less-than-top-of-the-line and still improve things greatly. So this is more of a possibility.

    To free up 6GB of RAM and get a better video system? 6GB isn’t huge, but it is a bit back into the general pool.

    I need to do more reading on how well external GPUs/Video Cards work when they functionally replace the built-in GPUs for mini computers.

    The Mac computer is a bit more thorny. Since the previous posts and beginning this mental journey, Apple announced new things and tweaked some other things.

    So, while the computer didn’t magically become un-obsolete, the replacement computer has remained the same. But, I could possibly replace the internal SSD used as the main system drive – I just need to use the existing system installation to download the system installer for a new blank drive. (The new blank drive won’t have a system rescue partition to recover from, and it’s unclear if I could use just Internet Recovery to install Mac OS onto the new drive without having a bootable USB drive.)

    Boiled down – I need to clear enough space to download the OS installer so I can use that installer to create a bootable USB drive, but I’m running out of things I can safely delete to get enough space to do that.

    Even using external drives.

    It’s mostly because I purchased this computer with 256GB drive, and it’s just been the same old drive for all these years, and it’s been running so well for all this time I never thought to create a bootable USB drive to be able to wipe the drive and reinstall the OS, if only to clear out the garbage files that just linger over time.

    I think I have some ideas about uninstalling apps previously moved to external drives, but I’m not sure how that will clear enough space. I need to clear at least 10GB, possibly more. And every movable app that could be moved to an external SSD has been moved to an external SSD.

    Another idea is to keep running it as-is and start making “payments” to my savings account like I’m financing the computer through Apple – $200/month for a year.

    I mean, it is still completely functional as an Internet machine, also as an Entertainment system.

    The hypothetical Linux computer is just kinda put off. I cannot afford a new computer right now, at least not one that isn’t less-powered than the two I currently have.

    But I have been thinking that if I can get a new Mac, I could re-purpose the old Mac (after migrating as much as possible over to the new one) as a Linux computer – since it is Intel architecture.

    And since the Linux computer would be used internally as a cross-platform bridge, it doesn’t need to have the latest and greatest, it just needs to be about as strong as what I have now.

    So, plans are being sketched out and revised as I catch up on hardware offering and work out what that means in dollars.

    Thanks for reading! Please keep on keeping on, it’s hard work but it’s rewarding, and what I’m doing.

    Skåll!!!

    Update:

    I found an abandoned Google Drive folder on the Mac that wasn’t synced, just sitting as local files. Over the past three hours I’ve verified that making changes to that folder and files within that folder did not update Google Drive, while making the same changes to the same files available through the Google Drive app did sync over, so I deleted the folder (as it was at least 16 months behind everything in Google Drive.)

    I recovered almost 20GB!

    So, I’m going to try downloading the MacOS installer and making the emergency bootable USB thumbdrive, so I can wipe the drive clean and reinstall MacOS.

    I don’t know what discombobulates me more – that Google Drive just orphaned that much data on my system drive without a clear indication that it was orphaned, in a hidden location that I’ve been idly trying to find for the past year, OR that I finally found a massive pile of files that I was only quasi-convinced existed, and after searching for a year I was seriously doubting even existed.

  • Things are beginning to come together.

    I made and received the third big order/purchase of computer stuff since moving here, and everything has now been installed and verified workable. I now have a full audio setup, full video setup, all the bells and whistles (excepting the Linux computer) so I’m right about where I was before I had to move, with some mild improvements to avoid further complications and hassle.

    Except for use-case testing. (Verified workable just means the equipment plugs in, turns on, and does what was advertised on the box.)

    Whassat mean? Well, I started getting ready to just go, and I realized very quickly that things ain’t ready yet. That verified workable isn’t use-case tested.

    I’m running low on space on the Mac, this Windows PC needs some further attention and love to clean things up and make things run better, and I really, really, really need to organize my data, as if the loss of those site backups hadn’t already made that abundantly clear.

    At least I caught myself this time.

    And today was spent looking into things, to further define and clarify what still needs to be done.

    Regarding the computers – the Windows computer could use a RAM upgrade, but thanks to the Data Center rush, the cost to max out the RAM would be almost double the cost of the computer itself. So that’s on hold. The Mac is maxed out, and it’s an Intel chip and officially out of support, so any other upgrades for it would be silly – but the new Mac that matches storage and RAM would cost ~$2200, so that’s not gonna happen immediately. The theoretical/​imaginary Linux box – I still have more research to do, but what would’ve been $500 two years ago is at least $750 now, with a less capable processor and/or slower RAM. Which isn’t a big deal, but I really need to define use case better before I find a way to afford that price jump, or navigate the right concessions to bring the price back down.

    All in all, it really makes me wanna punch Google and Apple and Microsoft and NVidia and all the other data center makers out there. In the sensitive bits. Repeatedly. Wearing brass knuckles.

    But the physical audio mixers and splitters are just what I needed to replace the software mixers that weren’t reliably working. Yeah, there are additional cables going all over the place, but that’s a price I will pay to avoid every OS update, software update, or other configuration change that breaks everything. (If I had a nickel for every time a sneeze broke the volume levels/​hardware recognition/​MIDI connection between my Yamaha keyboard and Mac OS, I wouldn’t be worrying about the cost of the RAM upgrades or even the new Mac, possibly not even worried about the cost of BOTH at the same time….)

    Also, having two monitors per computer is so amazingly comfortable. I had forgotten that having two monitors on a computer is so freeing, making it workable to watch videos or reference text or websites or articles while working on the other monitor. I cannot properly describe how much better it is than shuffling between windows and tabs or workspaces/​desktops on one screen.

    I probably have a few more changes to make for lighting, and I might need to get a few more external drives, but all in all it’s mostly done. I just need to get everything playing well with everything else, and I need to do my cleaning.

    Well, I have some other things in the works, so I think I’ll go back to researching Linux distros while waiting for those things to come to fruition before announcing.

    Thanks for stopping by, reader. I hope the world is treating you well, and that you’re able to put something positive out there to fight off the negative. I’m trying, good lawd, I’ma trying.

    Skåll!!!

  • Still kinda hiding in plain sight…

    I’m making progress on recovering all the things, but it’s a slog. Working 10-hour days in a factory really takes it out of you, especially when that day starts at 06:00 on the dot.

    I’ve mostly gotten used to the physical labor in the job, but the waking in the wee hours of the morning and going to bed a couple hours after getting home really doesn’t leave me much time to think, much less socialize.

    But I’ve finally gotten two monitors on the Windows computer, and am planning to get the second monitor for the Mac at the beginning of next month. And I got the USB/Midi audio cable for the musical keyboard, and it works on both computers.

    I was also planning on getting a physical audio mixer because the software mixers I have tend to stop working periodically and I’m just tired of it. But if existing problems weren’t enough, I also just had my headphones die. I’m hesitant to buy another headphone set, because the last set was many months of research to find something that was only good for two years. But I may need to anyway, because of the recently departed.

    I’m also debating getting an inexpensive Linux computer to simplify/centralize some file management, but I haven’t completely decided if I need to do that or if I should wait. I’m currently doing research on current Linux distros and modern filesystems with Linux services and tying that to cloud services to see what options/benefits are to changing things up.

    After some initial research, I will say this about Linux – things have changed a lot since I last toyed with things. It looks like some distros have streamlined filesystems/locations as things like SSDs have replaced HDDs, CD-ROMs have disappeared, and USB has won the port hell that was the 90s and aughts (only to make it worse again by having USB 1, 1.1, 2, 3, 4, etc.) Another positive is that desktop environments seemingly have made amazing advancements, and I haven’t seen anything lingering about X.org….

    So yeah, I may convince myself to get that inexpensive Linux computer just to be able to delve deeper into things and reacquaint myself with the system after an extended absence. I mean, if I’m honest, I’m not a Linux/Unix guru, I just was comfortable enough to be able to build a Gentoo system with a custom kernel, or be able to configure an intranet webserver with related file services. I don’t even know if MAN is the canonical way of finding guidance anymore.

    ANYWHOO, yeah, Linux kinda derailed this meandering update.

    I’ve finished reacquiring the majority of the kitchen stuff, bathroom stuff, and general living stuff. All that’s left is the specialty stuff.

    But I also have to start thinking about the future, namely moving in June. So, yeah.

    Thanks for tuning in to my blathering. I hope the world is treating you well, and that you’re able to make the world a bit better, even in these time of externally-stupid-induced hardships.

    Skåll!!!

  • All work and no play makes n8ey forget to post on the blog.

    The past two weeks have been evil cold. -18°F (-30°F with wind chill) was the worst that I remember, (I think I’ve mentally blocked out the rest,) and I was huddled inside, blocking drafts. For one full weekend I was literally in survival mode, grabbing moving blankets and clipping them to window frames, since without blocking the winds it wouldn’t stay above 60°F inside the house.

    I’ve also been rearranging my desk and computer set up after the big order at the beginning of the month, and realizing that it all just isn’t gonna work right away. They sent me the wrong cable for the Yamaha keyboard (that I’m not gonna return because it’s still a cable that I want and the cost is about the same.) The new stands for the lights are better than the clips, but I need more lights yet and the ones I have now have been discontinued, and (of course) the replacements aren’t as nice but cost more.

    I’ve also been trying to do some data management, moving files between computers and the cloud (between accounts), tweaking directory structures. (Losing the main backups for my websites really peeved me, considering the terabytes of data I have and the amount of effort I put into sorting and structuring that data….)

    I’m tentatively making plans to build a storage server to share drives with the other computers, and then having THAT sync to the cloud, but that’s just pencil on paper yet, not any firm actions.

    Unfortunately, I seem to have gotten a cold at the end of the week – so my three day weekend has been turned into long naps interrupted by food and playing with the website.

    So I’ll end here – I hope I can get more regular in the updates, but every time I start thinking I can get more regular in updates things go just a little sideways, so we’ll try but not bank on it.

    I’m gonna go back to sleep for a few hours and then we’ll see what I’m up for after that.

    Skåll!

  • Well, Time for a More Substantive Update

    Two months ago, things fell apart in Florida. A combination of having my position eliminated almost two years ago, failing to make my own business, and just difficult situations meant I needed to flee.

    But worse than that, I was too stubborn to actually flee, especially since over the last year I felt like I was making progress, possibly recovering things, rescuing things.

    But it didn’t happen. Things took a turn, and I got rescued by family, and moved back into a wintry state.

    I am very grateful for that rescue, even if all I do is grumble and curse that winter is only a poorly-balanced punishment designed by a cruel and evil universe against the pure and innocent inhabitants of reality who only want to try to survive and, if not find joy, then at least minimize the amount of pain that is heaped upon the innocent by the beforementioned cruel and evil universe, only to be humiliated and crushed by said cruel and evil universe repeatedly, only for their dark and malevolent amusement. With snow. And cold. And ice.

    *Ahem!*

    I’ve had two months to review what I was able to take with me, what was left behind, and to better understand what happened and how that affects things going forward. Two months to reflect on poor choices made because of stupid “self-reliance”. Two months to set up a less bleak future and start recovering.

    So, a brief summary: I lost at least half of my belongings. All of my kitchen stuff – appliances, equipment, etc. Most of my bedroom stuff. A good deal of my personal belongings. I did keep safe my rarest/most-prized books in my collection, the most personally valuable memorabilia from my father and previous stages in life. And I kept most of my technology. But the things that got lost, that’s taken time to uncover and understand.

    When it really comes down to it, I do think I’m better served by that stuff disappearing into the past. If I could redo things with the same space and time limitations, there might be a little shifting of some things, but not much. I am very grateful to have gotten through it with as much as I did.

    But the debts accrued are ridiculous. It cost around $7,000 to move to Florida six years ago. Moving back cost almost half-as-much on top. At least $10,000. And that’s without spending a penny on hotels on the way back north, driving non-stop, surviving off of vending machine snacks the whole way. And that isn’t all of the debt, it’s just the most obvious/noticeable.

    At least the debts are now being figured and handled, slowly.

    But the lingering effect, now that I’m less precarious, is how many intangible things were lost due to circumstances. I was focusing on survival far more than I’ve had to focus on survival in a very long time. For almost two years, I was planning around weekly grocery bills, making sure every penny put hunger at bay for as long as possible, for myself and my cat and my brother.

    Which meant everything, and I do mean everything, else fell to the wayside.

    Now I’m catching up. My Mac mini is disgustingly out of date, so is my iPhone. My Windows PC has had so many troubles to it, I’ve just consigned myself to making it limp along. Now I can look at replacements – to find out what new systems look like and how much they cost, what numbers have gone up and how much that really means.

    Macs have changed a lot. Mini PCs have too. Processors with more cores, more USB connections and faster networking components, and more expandability with updated peripherals, all good things. But I didn’t expect the disgusting rise in the cost of RAM and SSDs. Despite that, more capable systems are available for about what I spent on these existing computers.

    The AI integrations have seemingly moved into hardware, and just gone quieter – this frustrates me. Not only because privacy seems to take a back seat now, but also that “AI” is being blanket-applied to things that it doesn’t apply to. Simple logic-gated decision trees are not AI, but get presented that way. Ties back to ChatGPT and similar are hidden under the hood. So, it’s hard to tell what’s AI and what’s not, and what’s integrated and what’s not. It’s also hard to tell how to disable the things you don’t want, disregarding some of the dishonesty out there about “disabling” AI (I’m looking at you, Microsoft/Copilot, through my Windows 11 Software Update glasses, and you too Google, through my Chrome/YouTube glasses.) In fairness: Apple seemingly had some ties to ChatGPT, but those have either disappeared or gone silent-mode as well.

    But, all in all, I’ve got catching up to do in terms of technology, and it’s already underway.

    I’ve also started regaining weight lost due to previously tight dietary expenditures. Stress is also down, with only occasional panic attacks. While I don’t feel completely healthy yet, I do feel healthier.

    The job I have now is hard, but do-able. I’m working as a die cast trimmer in a factory, something I never would’ve imagined before November. The hours are long, 10 hours a day for four days a week, but there are weekly paychecks and one mandatory overtime day every other week and optional two or three overtime days as operations scale up. I’ve gotten past the initial tiredness, and am now working through trying to strengthen and build endurance.

    And my expenses have lowered – I’m spending probably a fifth less on groceries and getting better food out of it. And while I’m currently living under family roof until I get my feet back under myself, looking forward – rent is two-thirds what it was in Florida, for places with better construction and cheaper utilities, as well as better accessibility to stores and necessities.

    So, yeah, things are improving.

    It just takes time.

    Thanks for stopping by, reader. I hope life is treating you well. Please try to help make life better for those around you, as life is still scary.

    Skåll!

  • Coming back, slowly…

    I moved hosts and had backups, but now I’m having difficulty locating the backups.

    It’s coming back as soon as I can make it come back.

    Skåll!